I’ve been feeling really shellshocked recently. Just random flashes of memories from my year abroad… Feel like I’m living in two different worlds simultaneously. Might need 2 stop blogging for a while and just work on my new “jams.”
Working on jams helps me focus.
Thinking about April Oneil makes me lose my concentration.
Been thinking about joining the foot clan lately.
Everything feels so dreamlike.
Sometimes I think I’m incapable of a sustained coherent thought. It’s more like random firings of microevents that are themselves coherent, but of a very limited duration/existence.
The break in time for each blog post is a chance to jump somewhere else and “change the subject.” It’s an escape really. I think I use it as a chance to negate what came before it.
I think I might be too schizo to have an overarching unity or conceptual execution to anything. I think unity is outside of my control, but that anything I do can be/is unified after the fact.
I’m trying to look at the topical sequence of my blog posts. I think a terrible trend has emerged. I essentially try to destroy everything I’ve said up until this very moment. I consciously try to evade and distort. I think I’m trying to stop expression.
There are some different possibilities though:
A) too schizo for yall
B) too boring for you guys :(
C) not capable or writing sexy prose
D) too scattered to have any significance, or spread out in too many directions like a 90s Beck album
If things aren’t coherent enough, you’ll escape any kind of “market” you might have been reaching. I do think things are too micro-specialized, but to what extent does that reflect the “natural” organization of society?
I think about the relationship of Felix Guattari to Gilles Deleuze.
I think about the relationship of Hipster Runoff to Hipster Runoff Exegesis.
Just wondering what kind of article this image would accompany…. I should start taking stock photos that contain some kind of metaphor.
I’m listening to a song called Street Jizz on Hype Machine. It’s by Ssion. I wouldn’t recommend listening to it. I will probably avoid another Ssion song if I’m able to.
Don’t know why, but my desire to see movies has pretty much vanished. After one sees The Wrestler with Mickey Rourke, there isn’t much more to say cinematically right? Can someone please email me when there’s another Seth Rogan movie out? He’s pretty much the only thing I find funny these days, besides new episodes of Reno 911 and The Daily Show with Jonathan Stewartson.
Books are the nu-alt. I’m gonna start reading some books based on oscar winning movies and hot electro acts.
This book won an oscar in the 50s or 60s? I can’t remember.
Thinking about what kind of ”stupid hat” I’ll wear when I have no hair.
….then there’s no point in blogging right? At the moment I’m listening to a bad Empire of the Sun remix on Hype Machine. It’s actually pretty not-bad - - I can usually tolerate anyting minorly electro/techno. I need to find more shitty techno on myspace!
If you think about the number of myspace artists and how many unknown jams are out there…. I don’t know what I’m saying…. but I know Shitty Techno should be its own genre. There was a band called Shit Disco right? :( I’m pretty sure Shitty Disco is already established.
An indie artist should do some “random covers” of unknown myspace music to generate some buzzz.
Someone should write an essay about disco skulls. I think there’s something going on there.
I’m thinking about making a series of “crappy” techno logos that will appear on a google image “techno” search.
Nothing’s worse than boring/depressing “indie” music in my opinion. A “techno beat” is definitely more conducive to “getting stuff done”…..I think it makes me think better.
Still trying to understand the art of blogging. It still seems pretty dumb to me. I feel pressure to force “content” into being. When I re-read something I wrote it just seems kinda dumb. Amateur bloggerz come up with lists, right? You can re-post your Last.fm ‘artists of the week’ list too??
I’m trying to stay on the positive tip these days. It’s too easy to talk trash about things you don’t like. Don’t wanna be like some snarky self-hating blogger or worse yet - a “critic.” I guess there’s a little pocket for cultural criticism, but I don’t think I have the necessary skillz for that.
Satire is a pretty ALT comedy tool. I think it’s generally funnier than sarcasm and it appears to be less bitter and world-hating on the surface at least. I’m trying to find new avenues of comedy that “stay positive.” I should take a stab at Blog-slapstick.
I’m trying to think of the jokes I find funny…. What kind of humor is Mr. Shake and Carl?
What kind of humor is Jermaine? Is he funnier than Brett? I think they had to “ALT” Brett more than Jermaine when they started filming Flight of the Conches. Jermaine is definitely a more nature alt. Who do you think is better?
Surreal comedy sounds like the stupidist thing ever… I think I like lo-brow/ALT/slapstick/satire maybe. You know, like Aziz Ansari.
It’s really weird living in a foreign country for a year and then coming back home. How do you make sense of everything that happened during that year? All the small things that made up your daily life, things that you didn’t give much thought to after a while - where does all that exist? You’re always where you are now, but you can also be kinda somewhere else at the same time. I’m sort of waiting for things to “start” again, trying to get pulled into another cycle, but still trying to make sense of the past year. Things usually happen a lot more slowly than you realize though, and you’re usually unaware when you’ve arrived at a different place and the steps that took you there.
